Well its been quite a week, Kat Shearer and I ran the powerhouse that is Lit the F* Up and created some magic with the most amazing women, I put the finishing touches to my new 12 week programme starting on Tuesday with a magical group of people ready to connect to the BEST version of themselves, AND there are two big new things brewing in the business which I can't wait to share soon!
This is it... this is living my dream, connecting with amazing people, putting out offers which light me up and spending time doing what I love!
And at the end of this week I found old stories creeping in... can I do all of this... will it be too much for me?
It is funny how old stories can come up, its easy to see how these stories can show up when things are going badly, that inner critic giving us a kick when we are down, but why does it happen when things are going better than we could ever imagine?
Brene Brown and Gay Hendricks have theories on this, Brene's research has led her to understanding that joy is our most vulnerable emotion, we can avoid being in it too long as we fear the pain of losing it.
It feels so vulnerable that we temper it - you know that fleeting panic about a worst case scenario as you gaze at someone you love so much.
Gay Hendricks research led him to a similar place, when he talks about 'upper limits' our inner thermostat on how good it is safe to feel - often set in childhood. Once we go beyond that setting we can take action, sabotage, pick a fight to bring that level of happiness back down to what feels safe.
And so knowing all of this didn't stop me sitting with my coach on Friday in fear - fear of getting it wrong...whether I could cope with it all... was I going to be enough?
The beauty of a coaching conversation is perspective, getting beyond the thoughts, recognising the patterns and holding the vision for the other person at times when it is hard for them to do that themselves.
It was a powerful session, I felt seen and it reconnected me to a greater sense of trust, in myself, that it is safe to believe that things can be this good and I am fired up and ready for it all!
I am so grateful for that coaching conversation to connect me back to my biggest vison- love you Bron Tutty
I am so grateful for the women who came to Lit the F* Up, who took time to honour their needs and create some magic- priestesses every one.
I am so grateful for getting the chance to do this work and for the people who trust me to walk alongside them, to them I commit to always continuing on my own journey in order to support you on yours.
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